Where I'm At

2/6/15
Day Six

Today I am thankful for:
DWENG group meeting - ideas
Croinuts (deep fried croissants)
A call from my baby girl

I've just had the idea that I should tell you where I am starting so we all know how this goes:)

• I have approximately $24K in credit card debt and I live paycheck to paycheck.  I do pay all my bills on time
• I am separated from my husband of 35 years who is shacked up with another woman - my divorce is final 2/27
• My job is kinda fun and kinda frustrating but always ALWAYS on the verge of the business failing financially.  
• My kids and grandkids are awesome. Although my daughters are far away.  I love to be around my family.  
• I'm a little overweight. Not bad but could lose 15 pounds.  I am definitely out of shape.  
• I'm 53 and a little bit of a worrier about either being alone or finding a new man at my age.  
• I grew up in a very very fundamental church that basically taught me that my very existence is a pain in God's ass.  That he's watching all the time, waiting for me to screw up so he can shoot me down.  This causes quite a bit of anxiety.  And suppresses your ability to figure out who you really are.  

I have a vision board for things I am going to have in my life.  But I am going to set more specific goals.  I will post them soon. 

Tonight I had the opportunity to go to the DWENG meeting.  This is a Dallas Women's Executive meeting group.  They hosted a speaker who specializes in the area of finding a new job.
It so interesting how often you hear folks talk about your thoughts creating your reality.  Even though I am sure it was being said before, I didn't hear it.  The speaker's first comments were about how you the universe can lead you to the right job.  That you should always be looking/listening because you never know when or where the universe might send your new job your way.

I also heard things that were in line with some of my ideas.  She talked about being a coach. As soon as she said that I thought that was just for me, specifically cooking.  I'd love to teach how to cook. Just the basics for those who can't boil water LOL.  I don't know when or where or how but I'll do that one day!

I spent some time on a dating website tonight.  I am learning to be myself and just talk.

Today I:
Listened and spoke positive affirmations
Jogged on my mini trampoline
Ate poorly :(